Remix...

My new theme song for my journey is Remix by my old favorite band...New Kids on the Block.

That moment...

I have always wondered what my "Aha" moment would be...I've thought over and over I've had it but it never really clicked, until recently. My best friend and I were on our way to relive our childhoods at a New Kids on the Block concert. Before the show we decided to stop by a mall and do some impulse shopping. Normally shopping and I don't have a problem, but clothes shopping however...is a different story. It is very hard to find "cute" plus size clothes. But while waiting on my friend to try on clothes I was wandering around the store and walked past a mirror and as I glanced at myself in passing, I genuinely did not like what I saw. The image staring back at me literally made me want to break into tears. Don't get me wrong, I look in the mirror daily while getting ready for work, but at that moment it hit me like a ton of bricks. My "spare tire" made me look like I was several months pregnant and my shirt that was hiding my chunky arms wasn't helping matters. So in essence I knew at that moment I had to get back on track and make changes to change that reflection! Later that night my realization was reintegrated by the aching legs at the end of the concert. My poor legs weren't up to the task of holding all the extra weight I carry for so long.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not losing weight for the vanity aspect, though it will help I am doing it for my health and well being! My body doesn't deserve the torture I have put it through for the sake of my lousy eating habits and lack of exercise! This is something I HAVE to do, now is the time to do it! In the end I hope that I can be able to go back and pass by that same mirror and be able to smile back at that girl and say how fantastic I look!

Change...

Nothing will set your world spinning like finding out you are being laid off from your job. That became my harsh reality in March. After 11 years my world, routine, and life where sent into a tail spin. Sure I struggled, I scrimped and saved and I had to re-learn so to speak the value of a dollar. Thankfully I had a wonderful supportive set of parents to help me when I was down. But out of the bad I found more good. And that will become the inspiration to this little blog. So prepared yourselves for a wide variety of ramblings and thoughts! Thanks for taking time out to visit my little blog :)